I do not know how to start this essay from which
I do not know what I want to write or not
I do not know what I write is my desire or not
I really do not know with all this paper
All I know is, I really do not know what's going on with me
and I do not know what the purpose of my writing this
Hand dancing just above the laptop keyboard
My lips pressed together, smiling occasionally
My eyes are empty void accompany my mind
and my mind went blank as far off somewhere
Then this paper there
"All about you
Always made an impression on the heart "
Initially only the words written reply
Hhmmm ..
I'm aware of ..
The words were like a song I ever heard
"Brief Encounter and running very quickly
Not unexpectedly I instantly hypnotized by you "
Again, just a line of series that I express lyrics here
Yes this may be better
I can still remember the sequence of song lyrics
After what happened in my life during this meeting that begins with
I'm still together with her
I still expect without any certainty
I still fall into the same error
I still dream in the midst of suffering
I still want to be hurt, hurt, and hurt again by him
I'm still speechless, silent, and silent because his actions
Humans are not perfect creatures
So also with myself
Sometimes people also do stupid things
and so was I.
I cover my ears from the words of outsiders
fact that these people are my best FRIEND
fact that these people are my best ADVISORY
fact that these people are my best JUDGE
I paused to listen to my heart alone
Inner voice that guides me on a ANXIETY
Have long felt this anxiety
But somehow I menggubris anxiety itself
It may be true that they say
"You are too plain
You are too naive
To the extent that you are always kind enough to open up
give what is best for another person
but did not receive what you deserve thanks "
Yes IAND
I never want to do bad
I never want to hurt others
I never want to make anyone else angry
I never want to make enemies
I just want to find friends, mentors, advisors
and people who want to accompany me through life
I SINCERE with existing state
PEACE with all that I do
I SINCERE with all that happened to me
I really SINCERE, Lord ..
Suddenly I was aware of a few things
Sometimes we have to cry before we laugh
Sometimes we have to frown before us smile
Sometimes we have to meet with people who wrong people before meeting the right
Sometimes we have to fall before you learn to try to get up
Sometimes we have the courage to face the problems before successfully completing thousands of issues
Sometimes we have to start small things before finally ending big thing
I realize I'm doing it big mistake
Large to cover part of my diary book
Great to meet most of my writing here
Great to spend half the time in my life journey
But it all would make me stop at this roadside
I still want to watch all ANXIETY
but not in the old way that made me fall on the same fault
I want to walk, and keep walking, walking down what I never thought
Although sometimes I stumped for the wind, looking for hand showers
Looking ear foot rainbow lightning to find somewhere which ends
By : Rusmei
